Hi assalamualaikum :D

Day 2 of return to blog~  What to write ah? hehehe  Last nyte was Ra'id's (my nephew) birthday party.  Somehow, Zahra arrived at venue and started to feel unwell.  She vomitted.  Again.  Dunno why but kesian anak babah.  But this morning, she feels okay and happy.  Hopefully, its just last night.  Wife told me there's tummy flu going around.  Mudah-mudahan diberi kesihatan to all my family members.

At work right now, waiting for my class at 4pm.  Going to do practical activities later.  Finished my powerpoint presentation on it, hopefully the lesson will go well.  Not much time left though.  4 more chapters to go before the end of the year.  Hopefully can make it.  So many things are going on in the education industry that time is fleeting away so fast.  Kesian the students that have to endure all this.  Especially the multiple exams that they have to put up with.  May Allah grant them easeness in their studies.

Anyways.... thinking about a lot of things lately.  Trying to solve problems one at a time.  Really want to travel alone but now is not the time yet.  Maybe some time alone can help me figure out some things.  Hopefully can do it soon.  Outside seems okey.  But in my head... its a mess.

ps: Must remember, Allah is with me~

Hi Assalamualaikum,

Oh my god! How long has it been since I last updated my blog?!?  What have been going on? A LOT!! hehehe

So lets summarized since I last leave blog...

Got a second daughter on 8th November 2013 (she is now 4 years old, coming 5 soon!).  All my financial problems (from previous blogs) are now settled and gone.  No house yet (this one is really difficult).  Yes, I'm still a teacher and still teaching science for lower secondary AND still works in the same school (not much complain) about that.  My DSLR hardly use nowadays, the flashlight broke (sent for repair already).  Used to use samsung galaxy phones now revert to iphone.  Been using the same macbook since 2011 till now (best laptop so far).

But the biggest change in my life happen in 2018..... its a very big change so I just leave it at that (some things better left unsaid).  It brought me to tears, it brought me to depression and it brought me to a lot of stuff to seriously think about.  I'm not totally back on my feet yet (who could anyway) but I'm still trying.  I cannot just change just like that, I need time and confidence.  My life has been all about that and it needs to change for the better.

All I can say now is that.... Allah is with me, Allah is there for my ups and downs... and Allah never forgets me.... Syukur, Alhamdulillah.... till next time (belum banyak idea nak tulis apa)!

ps: yeay, I wanna write more~~~!

my 32nd birthday~

32

Happy birthday to me~

Happy birthday to me~

Happy birthday, happy birthday~

Happy birthday to me~

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya sudah masuk usia zal 32 tahun, banyak perkara telah terjadi sepanjang hidup ini, ada manis, ada pahit dan ada tak rasa apa-apa pun. The best gift for me so far is my daughter "damia surhana". She is the greatest gift to me ever~ Thank you for coming into my life and make it more meaningful.

Ryte, birthday itenary so far :P I went out to lunch at Singapore Table this afternoon with my wife and my daughter. Apparently, the Sri Lankan Crab was too expensive [say $70 per kg], so I decided to have 'salted-egg prawn' instead, which was surprisingly delicious also :) hehehe

After that, we went to my mom's house to help my little sister with her science project work [of all the days and I have to help her during my birthday, plus.. no bday gift from them :P] and my afternoon just finishes like that, time DO flies fast ryte hehehehe......

Anyway, we went home after that and that's it for my bday outing, simple and short :) Next year, would be a blast, the twin 33! ahahaha

ps: do I look old? ahahahaha

My baby girl~

Hehe... wah, it has been more than a month now that I have a daughter. She is so wonderful. Can't believe that she is never in my life before and here she is :) She started to talk now. Not the understandable audio okey, just go go and ga ga! hehehe She's growing and getting heavier as days go by. My little angel, look at her and her trustee hufflelump :P hehehe....

ps: daddy misses you so much!...

Back to writing.....

Aaaaah, it's been a while since I wrote about what's going on with my life. I need to get back to writing coz sometimes I feel good sharing about myself and let people to know me better. Well, it's April and it's the month where I'm born, so I thought I will start fresh and here it goes.....

So many things are happening in my life right now, got married in 2010, got a daughter in 2011... next is getting a house (which seems impossible right now) and getting my financial problem settled. Read a lot on financial solution but somehow ideal is the solution, it's just not applicable to my hometown. Hmmm.... but I read one thing that says "find what you are good at and go from there"... but what am I good at? Teaching.... sigh, kinda bored with that, I want to do something else. Hopefully I will come up with something yah :p

ps: that's it for today, continue another day :)

BCAT-ing~

"Brunei Common Assessment Task" or short as "BCAT" is a new method of standardised assessment that goes for 30% into the SBA. Basically, BCATs are a series of tasks done by the students with the help of Rubrics, Self Assessments and Peer Assessments that makes up 30% of their SBA at the end of Year 8 and ofcourse 70% from their SPE.

Each student will have their own "portfolios" for each CORE subjects (6 of them). Inside each portfolios contains their BCAT Tasks, Self- and Peer- Assessments and their best works. There will be 7 BCATS and there will be 7 BCATs reporting to do (it was agreed every BCAT will have parent-teacher meet!)

My biggest problems with this are:

1. Lots of paperworks (since we are going backwards from saving-paper to wasting-paper)

2. Time-constrains (really having problems with this)

3. Overwhelmed by other responsibilities.

ps: good luck to all Year 7 core subject teachers!

a NEW addition in my Life~

Alhamdulillah, on 12th February 2011 at 3.04am.... my daughter is finally born. 2.9kg and 52cm..... she is healthy, all 10 fingers and 10 toes :) I thank god for giving her to me~! She is an amazing baby.... I love her so much!! Thank you to all my families and friends for visiting and all the gifts.... **hugssssss

I named my daughter on the first day she was born... her name is....

"Damia Surhana"

ps: love her like crazy :)

Sufe's Day Out~

Assalamualaikum semua :) how are you all? Today I have a fun day out taking my 8-month pregnant wife jalan-jalan. It's a good exercise for her and plus, she's going to be indoor for so long after giving birth, so this is like a break for her before all that happen. So where did we go and what did we do today.. hehe

First of all, we went to Shabu Shabu Restaurant for lunch. The service is crap like always but I guess having non-fried stuff for lunch is not that bad for her (and me too, bloating here hehehe). So we ordered the large set + ostrich.. nyam nyam nyam :) In case you guys didn't know, I love ostrich meat, taste like beef though....

Look at that 'manja' face. She really likes it if I take her out especially to these nice places. We kind of missed Singapore Honeymoon though, it was the best time of our life :)

My drink today is "Special Calamansi Green Tea"...... taste really funny though ahahaha!

Alryte, this is the place we went today... kind of crowded and lots of people coming here this afternoon. There was this family sitting behind me, kind of annoying really... but I tried to enjoy my meal hehehehe.....

Now, this is one surprise... hehehe... after having lunch, we went to the Mall and guess what, we continue having our hi-tea at "Secret Recipe" restaurant with our good friend "Lydia". We chatted a lot about our work this year... kind of overwhelming, but hey.... lets survive it shall we hehehehe.....

uhuk-uhuk.. yeah, a bit of pose wouldn't hurt ahahahahaha!!

Look at that two friends :) Sufe is smiling all the way.. biasa.... food on the table.. mother has to eat a lot you know hehehe....

Anyway, last pose for this evening... behind that is our "the Mall" in Gadong. It's nothing much, but at least we have one.... hehehehe...

ps: what a nice sunday.... stress reliever :)

Life oh life~

Assalamualaikum all!... It's been a while since I posted my own picture in my blog :) the reason is mostly because I don't look that good. Lately I feel really bloated, I can even feel I gain lots of weight. Arggh, I've been missing a good workout last year and I was in a good shape to do some exercises. Now I have to redo everything just to get back my stamina. Starting from the beginning is not an easy thing... first of all, I need to have self-confident and motivation. To wake up early and do exercises [e.g. jogging] just not easy, let alone trying to keep it as a routine.

But nevertheless, I will try my best, my baby girl is coming soon, so daddy needs to be in a very good shape :)~

ps: work life work life work work work work.....~

PapparizaL~

Well... it has been a hectic week and its about to get pretty chaotic soon. Stress is overwhelming, work is very challenging. I gotta find a way to release these unwanted stress. Recently, bought a new lens for my Nikon D90 - a Nikkor AF-S 10-24mm Wide Angle Lens [courtesy of my lovely pregnant wife]. I might as well do some photography. And above is my trustee Lappy :) kinda slow lately, it takes more than 10 minutes just to wait for it finish uploading everything. I'm not a computer wizard that's why I don't bother to indulge in the moment of fixing the problem, so if anyone out there won't mind to fix it, be my guess. Got another lappy though, an Acer. My wife is using it at the moment, since it's small and light, it's easy for her to use :)

Now photography, not an easy thing to learn and understand, I guess experience is much more important. Rather than sitting down and reading its manual, it's better to go out there and start shooting something :) My weakest part for photography is choosing the right setting for a certain situation. I mean, I have still no complete idea whats ISO, AF, Stops... etc etc... but hey, I'm learning. Under my work circumstances, I had to resort to the slowest method of learning, once a week probably.

Anyway, good luck to me and my photography :)... huahahahahaha!!!

ps: snap snap snap!

Ada apa dengan kerja~?

Hi all.... it's been quite a week for me. First of all, we had this workshop on School-Based Assessment for Learning (2nd Wave) in Bridex, Jerudong from 7.45am until 4.30pm for two days [17-18th Jan]. Learned quite a lot of stuff during the workshop and spend lots of time discussion and idea sharing with other science teachers from other school. The best thing about it that I end up with a good group.

During the workshop, my wife was admitted to the hospital because she had a bit of bleeding. We taught the baby was coming, but thank god, its just false alarm. Not that I don't want my baby to be born, it's just too early for her to come out :P So after the workshop, I went to see my wife in the hospital.

Now I'm back to work. I just left school for two days, and I got work all above my heads. Need to do this, need to do that, need to complete this, need to complete that.... honestly, there's a LOT to do today. I haven't had my lunch yet, I got no time to sit down and enjoy a meal.

Today I received a memo that I need to attend a stress management course. I'm excited actually to learn how to deal with stress... but I'm not excited about the fact that I have to miss my class AGAIN and this time for FOUR DAYS!... and on top of that, I got another course called "Technology Enabled Science Teacher Learning Environment Development - TESTLED" twice a month every Wednesday at 2pm onwards (which means, I'm gonna miss my classes again and again).

I was told to swap classes, which apparently not an easy thing to do!.... First of all, I'm not the only teacher who have to attend this, probably other teachers too. Secondly, we have to do this swapping twice a month up until August and I'm afraid students would get confused due to changes in timetable that they might forgot what to bring and worse of all, since my lessons are in the science laboratory, swapping is not a good idea given the chance the laboratory is not available. I'm just UPSET that I have to do all these just to make up for everything else..... it's VERY TIRING since I'm doing to many things at one time. Not that I want to complain, but it's just a bit too much for me right now.... sigh....

ps: what can I do huh?....

AMARAH!!

Kenapa kita marah? Sebab ada sesuatu yg kita tidak suka dan membuat hati menjadi sakit. Lebih-lebih lagi bila sesuatu yang diluar kuasa kita. Kita akan semakin marah bila perasaan marah tu tidak diambil tindakan. Ada orang kata, bawa bertenang.. ada orang kata, sibuk kan diri.. dan ada orang kata.. "biarkan saja, jangan terlalu difikirkan".....

Tapi ada kita perasan tak, bila kita marah, apa jer nasihat pun takkan masuk kedalam otak yg penuh dengan kemarahan tu. Cuma diri kita sendiri jer yang dapat menenangkan segala fikiran yang bercelaru. Susah juga nak reda kan perasaan marah ni.

Sesetengah orang, mempunyai kawan-kawan dan orang tersayang sebagai tempat mengadu. Kadang-kadang, hati pun jadi tenang selepas mengadu kepada mereka. Dan ada juga yang lebih 'destructive', bila marah je.. abis la orang kiri kanan dia makan. Tapi yang lebih bahaya ialah mereka yang bila je marah, akan diamkan diri dan simpan kemarahan tu didalam badan.. sehingga sampai suatu masa, kemarahan yang terkumpul itu meletup dengan sekali letupan yang teramat besar.

Hadoi... macamanalah nak layan jiwa yang tengah marah ni. Bawak solat, amik air wudhu` dan baca ayat-ayat al-Quran. Wassalam.

ps: relax............................

$ad~

After weeks and weeks of waiting, non-stop hardwork.... everything just goes down the drain~ I declare I give up! It's time to find a new and different solutions to my problems. Hopefully the upcoming 2011 will give new and better hope. I just keep praying that the government or any other banks will come up to a better way to help to all of us who needs financial support. I mean, how many Bruneians are there to be help....? It's not much since we are all less than a million in population.

Anyway, to those friends who got ideas or suggestions on how to find more money (legitimately please). Please do share it with me okey, I'm open to any suggestions :) thank you all~

ps: Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku... padaMu lah tempat ku berlindung~

Angry!!

Today is NOT so much of a good day. Things do not go the way it should be. First of all, I can't concentrate at all when answering the FR examination. I always can't concentrate properly if something not good about to happen. It is more worse when I have no idea what's bad going to happen.

Finally, later that day, it happened..... went to the bank, and everything just went downhill. All the hardwork, the hours and hours of patience and endless motivation... then its gone just like that. My wife keep motivating me to be more positive. I do am grateful for her.

Tonite, I went out on my own, just to clear my mind... okey, contigency plan..... we have to find a way to settle what's need to be settled...... probably be difficult but we have to!! ..... sigh

ps: apa lah salahku......

Financial Regulation (FR) Examination 2010

Alamak!! Exam oh exam..... this is the most ridiculously difficult exam. Let me put it this way, its one exam about something that you don't came across a lot and also, as if, you will be doing any of it anytime soon. The funny bit about this exam is that the way they do a crash course on the matter and expect everyone to pass. He he.. as a teacher, I feel insulted in the way they teach the FR hehe.. anyway, rain or shine, have to study kan :) Bismillah... open my mind please.. coz its blocked!! ahahahahah...

ps: just FYI, this is the 3rd time I'm taking this exam... which is weird since I know most of the regulations already and still failed... malu eh! ahahahahahaa

House Hunting~

Arrrgghhhh.... finding the right house is NOT easy!! Too many things have to be considered... we already have this one house on hold, so far it's like a dream house, but we do not have the luxury to wait for it. So we probably have to abandon that house and take a different one... one which is ready to be bought.

Anyway, after thinking long and hard... both me and my wife decided to take a house as an asset. I mean, we need to secure our finance much more than we needed a house. Basically, buy a house and rented it out. Looking at the floor plan of the house, it's quite simple and cheap :) which is a good thing for a house to be rented, ryte? heheh low maintenance. Tomorrow, both of us will go to the bank to sort this out, hopefully things would work out for the best! Gonna have a baby soon, better be prepared~!....

ps: wow, been so long since I've last blogged.. anyway, I keep updating this :) see ya......

Gathering New Information....

WOW.. it has been quite a LOOOOOONG time since I've been here last....... what's the point of having a blog and not write anything kan... oke oke.....

Oke lah, starting tonite, I will gather all information I have to share and then, insyaAllah by tomorrow, this blog will be updated regularly.... huhu.... thanks for the patience yah :)

Must Watch Movie

You guys have to watch this movie, all RE fans should! Enough said...

Aidilfitri.........

Ikhlas daripada Zal & Isteri.......

Out Berbukak aka Sungkai @ Raddison Hotel

Today we went out berbukak (sungkai) with two of my dearest friends, the guy above is a friend of mine from primary, still silly as always... (as if I'm not) huhu.....

So, me and wife decided to Sungkai out today. First time ever, can you believe that?! When I was single, we went out Sungkai more than 3 times he he he....

My happy wife with her happy food! Baby gonna get lots of nutritions tonite!!!

Yeah, it's a little dark, who cares.. it's the food that matters.. wow.. so many food, so much temptations... be still my gout, you are my friend tonite!

Ah! Of all the food around, this are my favourite ones, FRUITS!! It's healthy, it's sweet and it's all mine!!!

I dunno what the heck this is, didn't ate it though...

YUMMYYYYY!!!

This section is somewhat useless to me... they could be more creative :P

Anyway, it was a fun Sungkai out. Too bad I was not in that much of a good shape. Caught bit of sore throat, headaches and minor flu. Wife got it also, hopefully does not affect my baby.

And this is my friend from when I studied at University of Brunei Darussalam. Thanks so much Lydia for treating us to Sungkai :) banyak pahala tu!! He he.......

ps: kinda sad didn't get to fully utilise my oversize stomach to inhale all the wonderful food, well.. what can we say, every cloud.......